Hey.

I . don't. want. you. to . cry . for . me. 

I know you can't help it, but really that does only make things worse, thats all I told myself when I was little, being My sister was a cry baby, and all anyone did was yell, 

Yelling and crying never got anyone anywhere, You have to find somewhere else to channel your emotion. Crying is like... a way to feel bad for yourself almost? I don't know how to put it, Just sometimes Its ok I guess, but sometimes Things should play out a certain way, and Im not going to sit around and cry about whats done, what is, what isn't ect, It'll only make my mood drop and my head ache. Instead I've got to keep Looking up, I've got to Go for the reason that Im crying, Accept life as it comes, blah blah yay motivation, were to young to act like were not alive. 

Of all things, I know Im not motivated because in long terms .. Where the hell was I going anyways. Perhaps this is how its supposed to happen, as I think everything thats happened, was going to happen. Some people call it fate as dumb as that sounds. 

I don't know whats going to happen, but Im going to live now and take it one day at a time, just like every other teenager out there.