I dont understand you

Vittoria You say your running away from everything, like sadness, but you still cry, So obviously your not running fast enough, or maybe it just goes to show you never can, So why should you even both running, take it as it is! When I said Finding something else to do with your emotions I didn't mean like... I guess literally doing stuff I meant like Ok so you can't do something or so what your mad, Instead of crying about it why don't you think about what you can do. 

Everyone around you and me and everyone in the world always nags, and says things that you can't do, Thats great So I don't know, Just of all things, you want to spend your Youth Crying? Show them what you can do? If you feel left out, Be proud of being alone? Like Do something maybe you can't do when your with other people, anything Don't you have enough opportunities to be doing something? Anything, there is so much you could be doing. 

Besides I mean My dad has been nagging at me to do all this stuff since his back has been acting up, Dishes, Laundry (which I already do ) Carry all this stuff around, now don't I sound like a whinny little baby? I don't like being nagged but in a way I think its fine, because I never have to do anything, Someone giving me responsibility is good for me, so just learn to appreciate it, Other then sitting around and thinking how much better my life would be If I had this or that, or didn't have all this pressure. 

The problem with everyone being so damn unhappy is they always think life is better somewhere else, look over there, They don't have to deal with this blah blah, there grass is fucking greener, WHO CARES, it is what it is, and you can't do anything so You might as well get used to it, and Start looking at what you do have, opposed to what you don't. 

all they are is a nuisance to me. its not fair. thinking of how much fun they are having, without me.

So why Do you put yourself through it, I guess I could have not invited you at all, I mean you kind of snapped at me when you asked if we could come pick you up. You asked in a really bitchy tone not going to lie. So you know you can't come out and play, Easy for me to say right, I can do whatever the hell I want! I'm saying you can always make your own fun, I don't even wanna hear any crap NO I CAN'T because my parents are so mean or blah blah blah, you can. ( I know EASY for michelle to say cause shes so damn happy all the time, and her parents don't Give a damn what she does!. Sure. ) 

because when you dont think too deeply about things, when you keep them simple.. you must be so much happier. 

Are you saying I'm stupid? And Don't think ? Because I am A really happy content person.

 I have what I have and I am happy with that. I'm not super or anything, I don't have some special powers, I am just like you, believe it or not, I am not trying to sound me, or yell at you your Asking Questions I am trying to help I feel like if  I come off to nice then I am not being Clear enough. You don't have to even read or take in anything I am saying, ITs all up to you, you can do what ever you want. Jealousy Is part of the problem, it all goes back to comparing yourself, Don't you see a pattern vittoria? Everything Is all about wanting more, and not being happy with just being. You have got to just except who you are, and that everyones not better then you, no one is everyone else is just different, everyone is different there are no Real levels of comparison because while you are looking at someone else, they are looking at you, thinking the same thing and it all equals out, but no one knows that, because were all so worried about being better. You want to know how to be happy, how to stop running away ? Then stop wishing you Had what some one else does, and don't tell me you don't. Stop trying to be that much better, then you can be and be happy that you are there, stop Looking the way you do, seeing what you see, you have got to see the better in things and not the worse. I can't ever say that enough. 

 pretend to them that im happy all the time,

Trust me, They will  know. 

Oh, last thing, ... you were not being left out Because we invited you? ITs not like we go behind your back and hang out? If that makes sense, We want you there, you said in the middle how you weren't cool or something and its like... WE obviously want you there since we invited you. And you and omar feeling left out, God you too are so much a like, not with the whole Clingy thing in ways you always compare you and him to, in ways with personality. So If you too left out, Why didn't you guys just hang out together? Then no one would have been alone.